Forever Broken

by Greg McCruden

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released 21 January 2014

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Track Name: Walk Away
I'm just the shadow in the dark
forget me if you want
I was never worth your time
and you can go ahead and watch me waste away
while I fade away from your life
cause I knew from the start that you belonged in my heart,
but I guess I didn't fit for you

So go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
I was never worth your time
so go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
you were never worth mine

And I poured out my heart
I gave you my everything
I showed you my world
I showed you I cared
but you just shrugged like you couldn't care less
and tossed me aside like I was second helping

So go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
I was never worth your time
so go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
you were never worth mine

and I swear this to you
I'm not broken or bruised
I won't give that to you
and I'll be better off one day
and I'll show you with these words the truth
and what it means to be in love too

so go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
you were never worth my time
so go ahead and walk away
leave me here to waste away
cause I'll tell you this
I'm gonna be just fine
I'm gonna be just fine..
Track Name: Doubt
You broke me
You wrecked me
You tore down everything!
Now I'm left picking myself up from the ground where you left me
Shattered, bruised and scarred
completely torn apart
I never thought you'd be the one to break my heart

I feel unsure, trapped and insecure
Like a broken down version of the man I was before
And now I'm doing anything I can
to fix who I am

You blamed me
Accused me
Told me I was doing nothing
When I was the one fighting to keep you next to me
But you dropped me and left me
And I broke down sobbing
because I knew right then I lost all stability

I feel unsure, trapped and insecure
Like a broken down version of the man I was before
And now I'm doing anything I can
to fix who I am

But how do you fix a broken soul
and how do you fix all these holes
when I doubt myself with every move I make
and take back every word I say

I feel unsure, trapped and insecure
Like a broken down version of the man I was before
And now I'm doing anything I can
to fix who I am
Track Name: Separation Anxiety
You left me dead, I get it
but do you have to toss me aside
like I don't exist
like I never did
does it still not click to you
that I never pushed you away
so why didn't you stay

but I'm sick of this anxiety that everyone is just going to leave me
and I need you to stay
can't stop thinking it's all gonna be just some messed up tragedy
I need someone to stay
please stay

Where did you go
after you left me all alone
is this what you wanted all along
to get so close and come oh so far
just to leave me bruised and scarred

but I'm sick of this anxiety that everyone is just going to leave me
I need you to stay
can't stop thinking it's all gonna be just some messed up tragedy
I need someone to stay
please stay

And I'm so scared like I've never been
so afraid of losing everyone again
I'm afraid of ending up all alone

but I'm sick of this anxiety that everyone is just going to leave me
I need you to stay
can't stop thinking it's all gonna be just some messed up tragedy
I need someone to stay
please stay
Track Name: Father (Hero Inside of Me)
When you left I couldn't help but feel empty
like when you died apart of me did too
but I kept my head up like I knew you wanted me to
and I promised I'd do it all for you

and though I miss you everyday I know it's you giving me the strength to carry on and be myself
cause it feels like you're the only that has some faith in me
you may be gone but I know you're here as the hero inside of me

and though our time was short we still have our memories like the first time we met
the smiles on our faces and the days we spent talking them away
you opened my eyes to the world outside
and for the first time everything felt right

and though I miss you everyday I know it's you giving me the strength to carry on and be myself
cause it feels like you're the only one that has some faith in me
you may be gone but I know you're here as the hero inside of me

and everything's a mess right now
I need some form of solid ground
I need something to hold me down
cause I'm just trying to hold myself together
I need you here now more than ever

and though I miss you everyday I know it's you giving me the strength to carry on and be myself
cause it feels like your the only one that has faith in me
you may be gone but I know you're here as the hero inside of me
Track Name: Walk Away Pt. 2
I'm sorry I hurt you this way
I never meant to make second best
I'm sorry for all my stupid mistakes
I'm sorry I hurt you that way

So maybe you should just walk away
and leave me here to waste away
maybe you should just let go
And maybe you should just walk away
before I hurt you again someday
maybe you should just let go..
let me go

I'm sorry for losing my head
I'm sorry I fuck everything up
I'm sorry for ever falling in love
I'm sorry mine was never enough

So maybe you should just walk away
and leave me here to waste away
maybe you should just let go
And maybe you should just walk away
before I hurt you again someday
maybe you should just let go..
let me go

I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed
I'm sorry I became what you hated
I'm sorry it's come down to this
but losing you was my biggest regret
Track Name: What I Never Said
Wasting time and potential
for this quote on quote essential
they all tell me I have to or I won't be anything
but how can I survive when I can't even breath normally
when I have no motivation
when I feel like a person with no purpose or direction

So place this noose around my neck
and hang me high so you don't forget
how much I fucked up
and how disappointing I can be

And maybe I'm just a walking cliche
an excuse is what they all call me
but I've got thoughts and ideas and beautiful dreams
that I am so desperate to achieve
but no one seems to care what I love
or what I need
they just demand to much from me

So place this noose around my neck
and hang me high so you don't forget
how much I fucked up
and how disappointing I can be

And I never said how I felt
Never tried to express my doubt
Never tried to say it's all to much for me
That this isn't the life I need
it's the one that'll end up killing me
but it's all you ever wanted
and it's all never be

So place this noose around my neck
and hang me high so you don't forget
how much I fucked up
and how disappointing I can be
Track Name: Drift
This is my letter
my final goodbye
This is how I tell you what's been on my mind
that everything I'm living has just been a lie
and I can't take this anymore nothing feels right

So I'll leave it to the wind
to carry me and drift again
to find myself and where I fit in
to blow along the unknown road
as a broken soul just trying to find
where I belong

I let it all go
stopped fighting it just takes to much
can't keep trying I've had enough
cause I hate it this stupid fucked up game
that we never even had a choice whether or not we wanted to play

So I'll leave it to the wind to carry me and drift again
to find myself and where I fit in
to blow along the unknown road
as a broken soul just trying to find
where I belong

I'm screaming at myself
at my reflection in the mirror
hating it and the demon I've become
and I'm so scared of this person I am
I just need to get out of here

So I'll leave it to the wind to carry me and drift again
to find myself and where I fit in
to blow along the unknown road
as a broken soul just trying to find
where I belong

So I'll start drifting again
to find who I am
a broken soul
who could feel whole again

So I'll leave it to the wind to carry me and drift again
to find myself and where I fit in
to blow along the unknown road as
a broken soul just trying to find
where I belong
Track Name: Fray
I'm throwing myself out there
trying to get out of here
I'm giving it all I got
for just one shot
And I'd throw it all away
the past mistakes
the dreaded pain
I'd throw it all away

And maybe this is a risk
but I'm willing to take the chance
for the sake that my mind can stop being
one big jumbled messed
I'm frayed at the surface
but not dead yet
I won't give into myself
I'm better than this

I'm getting so tired of this
the sleepless nights
the helplessness
its all growing old
and I'm doing anything I can
to get me out of this rut I'm in
to get me out

And maybe this is a risk
but I'm willing to take the chance
for the sake that my mind can stop
being one big jumbled messed
I'm frayed at the surface
but not dead yet
I won't give into myself
I'm better than this

I'm fighting hard
but losing ground
its so easy to get pulled down by this town
(pulled down by this town)
when the direction you wanna go
is the one no one wants you to go in
you can feel so alone

And maybe this is a risk
but I'm willing to take the chance
for the sake that my mind can stop being
one big jumbled messed
I'm frayed at the surface
but not dead yet
I won't give into myself
I'm better than this

I'm frayed at the surface
but not dead yet
I won't give into myself
I'm better than this
Track Name: Bay
Head in the ground
I'm here year round
stuck in the past
stuck in myself
never to be found
never found I can't find a way out
sick of feeling so stressed out
sick of feeling like I'm gonna drown
tired of the life I'm living
tired of the world we live in
tired of feeling so held down

Cause I felt at bay trying to dismay
all my thoughts and all my fears
but I always end up here
always end up fucked up and scared

And I'm losing sleep and myself over this
what happened to the plan where I got out of this
what the fuck happened to steady breathing and conquering my fears I'm just the same as I was last year
(Just the same as I was last year)
stuck in something that I hate
forever broken
I am never gonna change
Oh I'm never gonna change

Cause I felt at bay trying to dismay
all my thoughts and all my fears
but I always end up here
always end up fucked up and scared

I'm at bay with the world
at bay with myself
at bay with everything
and everyone else (x2)

Cause I felt at bay trying to dismay
all my thoughts and all my fears
but I always end up here
always end up fucked up and scared

(I'm at bay with the world)
and I feel at bay trying to dismay
(at bay with myself)
all my thoughts and all these fears
(at bay with everything and everyone else)
but I always end up here
(I'm at bay with the world, at bay with myself )
always end up fucked up and scared
(at bay with everything and everyone else)